Verse 1
When I record this track, I wanna believe what I spat,
That God has got my back and lay my truth on wax.
As I grow up now, I look back fondly on my past:
Pre M.L.T, before the cynicism and the raps.
Bible verses on my tongue, back then I could do no wrong,
Spiritually strong, a crusader among the throng.
But right about now, I could barely read a psalm,
I see no wrong questioning Jesus’s palms.
Sitting in the pews at church, watching the preacher do his thing,
Pretending murmurings don’t bubble in my head like submarines.
Sequestered in sin, looked at my dusty Bible and felt a twinge
Of guilt, I’ve lost my faith in the dream
Of paradise, let me clarify,
For every virtue of mine, there’s a scary vice,
I need to clear my eyes and feel his vibe,
Resting not within my mind, but instead my heart.
What they’ve fed me all this time was just a pack of lies,
And finally, I’ve come to realize…
Chorus
When it comes to being true, he’s true to me…
One thing I’ve found, one thing I’ve found,
Oh, he’ll never let me down…
Verse 2
Perhaps my loss of faith stems from the people around me,
Who drink from the fountain of the supposedly enlightened,
That ironically deplore everything that could frighten,
Them: so called freed minds who’ve seen light so they decline,
Any chance to rewind and see what matters in life,
Nah it’s live life to the fullest and never think back,
The problem is this creates nihilistic tendencies,
In simple English, that’s a carefree attitude about everything,
See what I think is, we all realize something’s missing,
But some try to cover it up by claiming to think different,
And shove it down our throats by the TV or what we’re listening,
And what bothers me is not enough people are speaking,
Out about it, I’m tired of being the butt,
Of your jokes, cause I know what happens when the lid is shut,
We either take a stand or get trampled in the dust,
This is not the first time they’ve tried to keep us shut,
Or tune us out, tell me what makes a good man’s people,
Send him to be crucified in exchange for one so evil?
Their tactics might have changed but their goal remains the same,
And as Christians, we ought to rise above the refrain,
Get up off our couch and walk the lane,
Those before shed their blood for to keep the faith,
Sometimes I feel lost but God always picks me up,
Because simply put, I know he’ll never let me down!
Ending
It’s almost surreal to think about now,
But awhile ago,
I was failing AP Calculus.
And you can’t fail an AP course, especially in your senior year,
I wasn’t going to graduate… just because of one class!
Obviously it hit me hard… I spent weeks in a daze,
Depressed and sleepy, pessimistic and suicidal,
It seemed with each test, I was digging a deeper hole for myself,
And having always been good at Math, I wouldn’t call for help,
Till by the grace of God, my mom came to visit,
She knew in her heart, that something was wrong,
And through prayer and hard work, I was victorious,
An A- letter grade in my 4th quarter,
And even though at the time I rejected God,
He never stopped showering me with love,
And now I’ve learnt humility,
Like the song says HE NEVER LET ME DOWN.
I need to clear my eyes and feel his vibe,
Resting not within my mind, but instead my heart.